Forever Chasing Understanding, in a World of Chaos…

Why is it, that we want to understand things so badly?

Why do we look for meaning in our lives, when the meaning is defined by us?

do we choose to identify with what we find meaningful in this world?

Now I don’t know the precise moment it happened, but over the past few years, I’ve come to relinquish the word coincidence, from my life.

In my eyes there are no coincidences.
Everything happens as it’s supposed to, when it’s supposed to, how it’s supposed to.

Now I look up the meaning of everything. Stuff that other people might find insignificant, if it stands out to me, I will take the time to look it up.

That’s my fallacy, looking for meaning when there is none, but yet it gives my soul clarity. So is it really a falsehood?

How does it give my soul clarity? Because where I find meaning is a reflection of where I am at spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically, and energetically.

I interpret the meaning of insignificant/significant events that happen in my life, because that interpretation gives me insight to how I truly feel about circumstances and situations.

Is it fate, destiny, or the cruel hand of coincidence?

I mean I know that our beliefs shape our reality, and my beliefs are set in a way to embody the best in this world, and uplift me to the highest point I want to reach.

So this meaning gives me a foundation to build on, except, the meaning isn’t my strong foundation, it’s fleeting because each new event that I find meaning in, has the ability to take away from forming other solid beliefs, that I could be building on.

Each symbol I see, and the meaning derived there of, is actually a brick being added to the building, and my foundation is the character of who I am and the fact that I look for meaning everywhere is for reassurance, to reaffirm my faith in my path.

Everything could be a coincidence, but it’s like coincidences, are so cliche, because it literally could be any other thing. Let me give you an example.

Yesterday I saw a cricket fall out of the air vent in the ceiling and land right on my laptop as I was typing. Now first of all, it was weird for it to fall out of the vent to begin with, like how often does a cricket fall out of the sky? Secondly it could’ve been any other bug, but it happened to be a cricket. Now some people would say that’s a coincidence, but in my eyes, it’s not, because it could have been any other bug; a spider, a fly, ANY other bug, but it was a cricket.

Coincidence? or Divine timing?

Now it was even stranger, because I never stay up past 11 and the one night I do, is the night that a cricket happens to fall right in front of me, on my laptop…

What do crickets symbolize:

“good luck, wealth, and prosperity in general, is usually a positive sign. It is indicated that you should never harm this little insect, though, for your good luck will perish as well. Cricket is a bearer of happiness and love in your life.”

So first of all I didn’t harm it, all life has value in my eyes, and who am I to pass judgement on whether a creature lives or dies, no matter how small.

Now you can interpret the symbolic meaning in your own way, but in my mind, it made this out to be a significant moment and a reminder that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, doing what I am supposed to do, completely at ease and at peace.

It was a reminder That I am on the right path.

That’s my point though, how simple it is to create meaning in your life. All of this could have happened, and I could have dismissed the moment, but I found the cricket to be meaningful. I didn't have to look up the symbolism, but looking it up allowed me to direct my feelings and thoughts in a positive and beneficial way.

On the 5th of July I saw 2 dead birds in my path, one outside my door, in the garden, and one walking to the post office.

The birds could have died because of the fireworks the night before, all the smoke in the air, maybe choked them to death. I didn’t have to see them. I randomly did…and that’s how some people create meaning in their life, is by believing that coincidence and fate have no distinction.

And that’s because they don’t have any distinction, they’re one in the same. A lot of birds may have died on the 5th of July, but the significant part, is that I saw them, they happened to cross my path, and one bird would be no big deal, but the second one felt like it was a message that was emphasized, so I could realize it was meant for me.

Dead Bird Symbolism:

“doesn't necessarily portend physical death, but metaphorical death. ... This dead bird marks the end of your search and struggle. A new beginning is just around the corner. More specifically, it symbolizes the end of something and the start of something else.”

This was extremely powerful for me, because I felt that there was a change taking place within me this week, the end of one cycle and the beginning of a new one, almost as if I was being reborn.

Now where you have to be careful, is with confirmation bias, looking for answers to confirm what you want to see in this world, but how can we not find, what we are searching for?

You can draw meaning from any moment that you find meaningful, and every moment in front of you is one you can find meaning in.

This is your life and every second’s value is defined by you, no one moment is more powerful than another; because the next one would not exist without the one prior, but it has to be understood that you have the power in your hands, to define what ever you want it to be.

Whatever you see as important in life. You create your own meaning, symbolism resonates with me, but it may not with you. Everyday you’re creating meaning in your life, and I hope that the meaning is of great value to you, because there is nothing more valuable, than each day in front of you

So let’s make the most of it!