Burnt Toast.

Have you ever ate burnt toast?

You can’t just eat it burnt, it’s a flavor, that will linger in your mouth, so you have to take the time to scrape the burnt parts off.

I felt like burnt toast this week, and that I needed to take the time to remove all the stuff that no longer served me.

It’s been a really tough week, mentally, physically, and emotionally.
Something happened that left me so overwhelmed I had to shut down. 

I’m not sure what triggered me, I’m not sure what sent me down this rabbit hole, but I couldn’t bring myself to do anything. Physically I wasn’t able to work out, and emotionally I’ve been numb to it all. Lack of feeling, completely apathetic. 

It’s not a bad thing, I needed to relax, and rejuvenate myself, in order to be refreshed and allow the answers, I was searching for, to come to me. 

I had a sense of peace wash over me last night, that reminded me I have nothing to worry about. My shutdown came from a heightened sense of fear. Fight or flight, as they say, except this was shock.

Shock from feeling overwhelmed, by subtle doubts creeping in. My faith wavered and I pushed myself too hard.

I’ve been lookin for so much meaning in my life, in every moment, having faith I’m on the right path, when it’s not about looking ahead and making sure each step is meaningful, every step will always be meaningful, it’s when we are at the end of our days, or at the end of a road, before we embark on a new path, that we look back and see the meaning.

So don’t get caught up in, why you’re doing what you’re doing, don’t question what you feel, Remember that what you feel is real and what feels right is what you should do…don’t question any of it, but allow yourself to act free of judgement worry or constraints.

Remember that you don’t need anything, but you never know how something will work out, so keep an open mind, and dive in.

It’s okay to take breaks, it’s okay to rest. The idea that you have to be constantly working, and creating, is a concept of capitalism, that encourages people to be in a constant state of production. This can be detrimental to a person’s mentality, if they associate their value and worth with their work. Nothing against a person’s work, I’m only reminding you that your worth is not defined by your work.

Take the time to do what is necessary to make you feel right, whatever that may be. If you need a week off for your sanity, to rest and recuperate, take that time. Rest is a catalyst for success. There’s nothing wrong with a little burnt toast, you just need to take the time to scrape it….